I feel as though you have caught me at the wrong time.
These last few months have felt like a sluggish trudge up a muddy bank. Although, I believe, this route is the right direction for me to go; I can't help but find it terribly boring.
My life has been lacking those electric moments that make you feel alive.
The mountainous highs and cavernous lows, that shape your own personal landscape.
I have patience and productivity, but no passion. I have no battles to fight, no solutions to find and no meaningful flings to speak of.
However, I am not pessimistic.
It's as if I'm crossing a desert, with every dune I climb I expect there to be an oasis on the other side. Although I've not seen one in a while, I know I'll find one in the end. And it will be worth the wait.
All this said therefore, the here and now does not feel like the proper place to start this blog. If I find an oasis, I'll let you know. But in the mean time, without meaning to sound ostentatious, there are better stories to tell than my current slow march across imaginary sands.
It is my intention then, to dedicate large parts of this blog to a more intriguing period of my life. One that I have often wanted to write about:
February '05
I had to make a decision, not an unusual one. One I expect many seventeen year-old boys have had to make. My choice, however, would lock me into a roller-coaster seat for the next two and half years or so. Although I didn't know it, this was a pivotal moment. I had tipped the first domino, now they were all about to fall.
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3 comments:
i like what i have seen so far love.
and i totally agree... i am having so many adventures here, but at the same time, i feel as though i am lacking in any emotion other than content and excited. i figured maybe it is best to appreciate it while it lasts, before some stupid problem next rears its ugly head... maybe this is an unanticipated bout of quiet you deserve?
I like this as a first blog - the imagery is lovely and so meaningful, i think everyone could identify with this at some point in their life. Its interesting cos its hard to decide if its an entirely negative or positive experience - peaceful sure can be boring sometimes!
intruiging, and i can definitely relate to the lacklustreness of things as of late
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